Blog to God

What a week so far. One very bad day with a good night, then a relatively good day with a bad night. What is her problem. sometimes great, sometime really terrible. Am I wasting my time, am I deaf to what You are telling me. How much longer must I go on like this or should I move on. I really pray I would know what You want me to do. If it was not for those 2 beauties whom I love so much then I would be out of it so fast but she knows she has me because I wont see them without and she uses it agaisnt me but how much longer must I put up with it. Why should they suffer so she can learn. I really would like Your clear guidance on this. Most of the time she is fine but when she has a couple liek tonight she is impossible and I dont want to be around when it is like that. Even if things worked out if she got like that I could not handle it. I am killing myself to try and keep the peace and protect them but is it worth it. They certainly are but are they just learning bad things, I dont thinks so and pray they are not.

Lord please help me to show others Your grace by letting Your light and beauty shine through me. I pray for peace not just for myself and my loved ones but all the world. I ask this in Jesus name Amen.