Blog to God

Thank You so much for letting me get what I need to stay here at least for a while longer. Please help me to use this opportunity to make things better. I love You and all You have done for us. things are far from perfect, way from perfect but there is hope as there always is. I know it was all Your doing so thank You again. Amen

Thank You for helping me with one bad habit, I could not have kicked it without you but as I am so weak, please keep helping me to keep away from it. Please help me with my others so I can be a better person. I dont want to be like this anymore and dont want to live like this anymore and need Your constant help. I dont deserve it but really want to be with You and serve You and want other people to see You in me. I am really ready to come to You and leave this pain and hurting I have in my heart behind. Why, why, why does it have to be like this? It is not what any of us wanted and now i is to late to fix it. I dont want to carry on in this same way but cant seem to get on with anything. I really think there is something wrong with me and I aknowledge it but dont know what to do about it. Please show me the way and lead me on the path You want for me but please be clear and tell me in a way I can understand because I think You have been trying to show me but I am to dumb or blind to see it. How do I know what You want me to do. I love my girls more than anything and just want to be around them all the time but unless I can get myself sorted out I dont see how that is possible but how do I sort myself out. I am always so tired and I am really not doping what I want to be doing. I am not happy doing this but dont know what else to do. I am really ready for a change but want it to be what You want me to do. Lord I want to thank You for all You have done for me and I know I should not complain as I have way more than most people and I would love to have everything but I really just want a bit of happiness and peace from this pain in my heart and I know that the only way I can really find that is through You. I love You and want You totally in my life. I ask all this in the name of Your Son who died to save my life. Amen

Please help me to remember that the way of the world may look enticing, but the rewards are temporary. Your way may be difficult and low paying, but the retirement plan is fantastic!

Lord I really want to get back to being with You. I cant stand not feeling You with me and I know that You are still here but I am letting the way of the world get in between us and I dont want that Lord. Things seem to go well for a while then suddenly everything is back where it was. One step forward and 2 backwards. Lord I cant do this yoyo anymore. I really dont want to live like this but I dont know what to do Lord and really need Your help. I just want to be witht he ones I love and even the one who continues to hurt me and break my heart. I am so tired of struggling everyday and all the constant worry, Lord I dont know how much longer I can go on like this. I need a bit of happiness in my life Lord. I know I am happy when my 2 beautiful girls are around but at the same time it makes me really sad because I cant even give them the basics that they need.

Lord please dont let e stray again, please hold me tight and dont let me go because I am to weak to do it on my own and gladly admit it. I need Your help and offer You myself to use in any way You seem fit. Please just clearly tell me what that is because I am to stupid to figure it out myself. Lord thanks You for all You have done and I am sorry that I am not gartefull enough.

I love You Lord and all I ask I ask in Jesus name Amen.

HELP please I really dont know what is going on or what to do and need tyou more than ever. I pray in the name of Your son Jesus Christ that you please help me to return to you fully and tell me what to do. Please Lord because I am in such a bad place right now. I love You Lord, Amen