Blog to God

Forgive me for slipping,forgive me for not being the person I should be but I cant do it without you. It really is too hard. I dont want to be like this, I want to work hard and make money to give my kids what they deserve. Lord please help me. Amen

I am so sorry for the last month and beg Your forgiveness. It was a really bad month but there is no excuse. I really dont know what happened but it should not have. It is all so confusing. How is it that the things that are normally pleasurable are bad. I am so confused. Is it really wrong, how do I know or am I just kidding myself. I just pray that I could talk to You in a way that I could understand so I know what is going on.

Thank You for staying with me and looking after me and not really punishing me. I dont want to live like this. I just want a normal quiet life in Aus with the family and just want to live a peacefull good life. Lord is there any thing in Your plan for me like this. If there is, please show me the way. I or rather all of us need to move forward now, it has been long enough with this state of flux if that is the right word.

Thank You Lord, I love you and ask all this in the name of Your Son Jesus. Amen.