Blog to God

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU You have given me the job I asked for. There is still the hurdle of the car to sort out but I have faith. I paise you and thank you more than you can ever know. You have given me this chance and I will put everything into it to make it.

Thank you Lord. Amen

Lord I ask in the name of your son, Jesus Christ that you let me get that job that I have the interview for on Monday and that it pays enough for me to get home to my girls. Lord please you have tested me over and over with all these bad things that have happened and I have stayed faithful to you. Please now try and test me with something good, if I then leave you, take it all away again and put me in an even worse position than I am now. Please hsow me what you want from me. Thank you Lord, I love you Amen.

O Lord God, I appeal to you in the name of Jesus to have mercy on me . Have mercy for my weakness, hypocrisy and sin. Lord please do not just forgive me but strenghten me and enable me to be a more sturdy & faithfull disciple. Have mercy on me in my time of confussion & need. Heal my illness, mend my broken heart and still the storms of my troubled mind. Have mercy on me as I try to discern the path you want me to take, the decisions I must make. Have mercy on me as I seek to minister & as I need Your strenght, wisdom & compassion to touch others. Lordg God & Jesus my master in whose name I pray have mercy on me. Amen

HELP ME, HELP ME PLEASE. Lord I dont want to carry on with this, it is just to hard and everything I do seems to make things worse. I know I am right but why does it always turn round to be my fault. I dont want to be around any more. I want to be with you but I also dont want to go because my babies will then be worse off. I dont know what to do, I wish I did not care so much. I dont want anyone else, I dont want anything but to be near my 2 girls. I know you have the power to do anything so why dont you, what are you waiting for. I thought you had forgiven me, what more must I do because I am totally lost. I have trusted you for so long now and even in the worst times I still turn to you, why dont you give me something good and let me show you that I will still turn to you when times are good.

I ask in Jesus name for you to save me. Amen

Thank you for getting us through another day.

Lord I am so tired of having a sore heart. I really need to be near my family and see them often. I need to see their smilling faces and hear their laughter. I want to hear about all their victories and problems. I want them to irritate me and disturb me. I want to be their hero and not just someone who sends them money every month.

I want to be part of their lives. I want to be there to pick them up when they fall. I want to be there to watch all their shows and competitions. I want to be there to carry them high when they are successful. I want to be there to be asked to take them everywhere, to stay up late to fetch them. I want to be near them to share with them your grace and goodness.

Lord why has it taken all this destruction and pain for me to learn the reason of life? The only 2 things that really matter, You and family.

I ask in Jesus name that you help me to get back to be near my family wherever that may end up being. I pray that you let me be a real part of my beautiful girls lives.

I love you God. Amen