Please take me now. Lord I don’t want to be on this earth anymore. I have let You down yet again, I have let my family down yet again. Lord I have spent so much time away from them and miss them so much and now to loose my job on top of it all just before Christmas, Lord I cant take it anymore. Lord I know that I should just trust in You but whenever I do and You provide a miracle for me I go and mess it up and things end up even worse than before. Lord it is me that I don’t trust. I really don’t know what to do any more. I am so alone and so useless. Lord I don’t think I have ever been so low. I have let so many people down. All the ones I love, my whole family. Oh Lord everything just goes from bad to worse. Lord I am begging You to please help me. Lord please help me find a way out of this mess. I feel like, I don’t know what I feel like other than I want to die. They will be better off without me Lord. I have let them down so badly Lord and whenever something goes wrong it just makes it worse and worse. Lord I ask in the name of Your Son Jesus Christ to please just take me. Let them have some peace without me. I am no use to them, I just drag them down. I miss them so much and have missed all the important things in their lives, I haven’t been there for them. Lord you performed a miracle and gave me everything I asked for and I went and messed it all up and since then everything has been a disaster. Lord I pray in Jesus’s name for You to save them. I cant cry anymore over what I have done to them so please take me out of their lives so they can have some peace. Lord I don’t know what else to say. You know my heart and You know me. Save me please Lord.
Thank You Lord for that one piece of good news but as usual I don’t immediately thank You. Guess I deserve all these problems especially after what I said earlier about testing me to see if give You credit and thank You. Lord please forgive me yet again. Thank You Lord. Amen
Things just keep getting worse and worse all the time. Lord I know you are real and you performed a miracle for me. There is no way it was just chance that I got a great job in not only the country I wanted but even the city and just as I lost the other job. The timing was perfect just as You are. They were all going to come over and we would have had a fresh start till I messed it all up. Lord I miss all my girls so much and am so sorry for what I did. I haven’t done all the other things she thinks I have but I don’t know how to get her to see that. Lord everything was so great till I messed up and now it just gets worse and worse all the time. Lord I really miss them. Its now been 5 years that I have spent away from my little girls and it really isn’t fair on them. I know that what I have done has turned them against You. Why is it that when things are going bad I turn to You but as soon as they go well I seem to forget about You. Lord I don’t want to do that. I know You cant trust me as I keep doing it but Lord I want to show You that I can let Your light shine through me and can be the person You want me to be and the person I should be if things are going well. Lord please test me to see that I wont forget about You when things go right. There is so much I need but then there are so many others who need so much more than I do. Lord I am so confused. I don’t know what to do or how to do anything anymore and really need Your help. Lord I just don’t know. We still have more than lots do so is it selfish that I ask for You to help me. Lord I am lost. I pray in the name of Your Son Jesus Christ who gave his life to save a useless person like me that You please lead me to where You want me to be. Lord I love You and thank You. Amen
Thank You for this chance You have given me. Lord I don’t know what it was all about and am confused about what happened and why it is this way as I think I was doing ok but it is the way it is and maybe it is another wake up call to show that I can do better. Lord thank You for all the things You did for me today. I know I want more and really want my family over here with me. Lord I realise that You gave me the chance to have everything I prayed for. You performed a miracle in my life, there is no question about that. Answering my prayers, the timing, everything, there is no way that wasn’t You performing a miracle and I went and messed it up like I seem to mess everything up. Lord I am so sorry. I have missed so much of my girls lives and it is really heartbreaking. Lord I am so sorry and ask that You forgive me. I know I don’t deserve it Lord but they do so I am asking in the name of Your Son, Jesus Christ to please come to my rescue once again Lord. I know I keep promising that I wont mess up again and will be a better person then I go and mess up so in order that I don’t break my promise to You again I wont promise but instead I will ask that You help me to be the person I should be and to be the person You can be proud of. Lord thank You. I love You Lord. Amen.
I now realise how much I messed up and don’t want the wrong thing. Lord I need them to be here with me but cant do it without You. Lord I cant do it myself and I know You are the only one who can do it. Lord I know it means getting the visa before they can be with me and I have no idea how I can get it. Lord I am in a mess and missing them so much. Lord I have spent so much time away from them and hate it. They don’t deserve it so I am asking in the name of Your Son Jesus Christ for help. Thank You Lord.
Don’t really know what to say other than thank You. I know that at the moment things are pretty bad but I know you are there with a plan.
You gave me the opportunity to have all I asked for. You performed a miracle for me. A great job, not just the country we wanted but even down to the city we wanted to live in, back with my beautiful wife and kids and I messed it all up as usual. I am an idiot. Lord I don’t know why I did it as it wasn’t what I wanted. There are no excuses. I messed up really badly. After all the hard times things were looking so good until I thought I could do it myself. Things were so great thanks to You. Lord I ask that You forgive me for what I did not just to disappoint you but to my family. Lord please bring them back to me and let us have what we should have and what they deserve even if I don’t. I ask in the name of Your wonderful Son Jesus Christ.